Thursday 30 May 2013

Limbo Hopes....Bridal Curiosity

I wake up some days and I genuinely(again) am lost for direction and do not know what I will be doing for the day.I pray a little and wait for the day to take its course.I resort to turning on my laptop and checking my Facebook,my YouTube then my blogger as the norm has been for over a year.
I eat when I remember or when I feel hungry and just wait for night to fall so I can go to work and come back,sleep and repeat this wonderful routine that has given me something to live for(very sad) in the last few months.
I am again genuinely unclear about who I am and what I am supposed to be doing  in life.Adulthood surprised me a little after I started uni and as time has gone on,I have tried relationships,jobs,social gatherings  etc to make me feel like I am doing something.
I have chased academic and career goals and truth be told,I wait quietly for a powerful and meaningful break that will not leave me feeling so empty.
My comfort lately has been God,the church,singing and shamefully browsing(laughs loud)

In  the midst of all this,I am starting to realise that even though  I have never had dreams to find a Prince Charming who will sweep me off my feet and make me the happiest woman ,help me become a wonderful mother and live happily ever after(wow,that was a mouth,handful).

I am really getting to a place ironically where it is the only thing I really want and for some reason I hope deep down it will bring some meaning to my life.I wait therefore somewhat impatiently for a wonderful God -fearing man to surface who will love God and me as much as I will love God and him to find me.
Its gonna be a long wait....Goood help me:)

Having said all this,I know that meaning is only found in God since He's the creater.

The beautiful bride I will be.....................<3<3<3
Make up by Desire Hair N Beauty

4 comments:

  1. lololol God sure help you!... don't worry the time will definitely come so enjoy NOW and live everyday as though it were the last time to enjoy ur life on earth... lovesome!!!

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  2. When the time is right, the most high will give you the flesh of your flesh. Remain prayerful and have faith, your Prince Charming will come along when you least expect it.

    And thank you for your kind words. My lipstick is a mixture of Kiss Of Life colour 111 by Kate Moss and MACs ruby woo.

    Lola x

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  3. Thank you Dami and thanks for responding to my comment about your lipstick...I loved the combination...I will keep waiting.

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  4. Im sure you Will find your prince one day.

    In the meantime, remember that the stage between youth and adulthood is a confusing phase. Like all phases in life it is tough leaving something very framilar and entering something unfamiliat. The fact that next phase comes with so Much reponsibility doesnt help. Dont push your self too Much. Take your time to adjust and dont stress over what you think everybody Else gets or experience cos most people Will experience the same feelings. Some people postpone it with uni, but when that is done, the same questions you have Will pop up.

    Hope you enjoying the summer!

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